This weeks post is a very personal one for me, so please bare with me. I’ve had many things make me happy this week, and for that I am grateful. However something that I need to mention and make a point of saying is how happy it makes me to see my sister with my children. In particularly Penny right now.
She has always been a huge part of my children’s lives, and when we discovered that we were pregnant together last year (only 4 months apart) I was ecstatic for her and her partner. I knew she would make a fantastic mother, because I’d seen it in her since she first met my eldest daughter over 14 years ago. Everything seemed to be going great. My sister was going to be at my home birth and our little ones would grow up together. Sadly that wasn’t to be and baby Paul went to heaven on the 12th September 2014, just 3 weeks before my Penny was born at home. Even though her heart was clearly breaking, my sister came to meet her new niece and on the weekend her baby had been due, she and her partner stood up and vowed to be Godparents to our little girl, while secretly carrying a secret little bundle of joy. As the weeks passed, we dared to dream of a future of being new mummies together again, and although baby Paul was and will never be forgotten, there was a light in my sister’s eyes again. Sadly again, on the 19th March, baby Scarlet joined her brother in heaven, this time my sister almost joined them. I can’t go into the details as it is far too upsetting for me to talk about, but I am thankful every single day that my strong, beautiful, loving sister made it through physically and has never allowed her obvious heartache to affect how she loves my children with her whole heart.
I have no doubt in my heart that my sister will one day experience the total joy of having a living child of her own. She is a mother already, a mother of angels, but also a mother figure to my children. I know that she truly loves every single one of my children as much as I do and for that I really can not verbalise how thankful I am for that.
So what has made me happy this week? Seeing my beautiful sister, run through a water fountain with Penny with not a care about getting wet, or looking silly, knowing that next week is her angel son Paul’s birthday. That she is able to find joy in my children and the things that they do makes me so very very very happy.
Amy, I love you more than I could ever tell you, and am grateful for your strength and courage. My children are very very lucky to have you as their Auntie too x
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