YOU ARE HERE
So, while taking part in in of the challenges for ‘Blogging 101’, I was faced with 4 images. We were told to choose one which spoke to us and write a blog post about it. There were no rules about the post, and we could take it in any direction that we wanted. So here I am. The road map practically screamed at me. Possibly because I seem to be coming to one of those forks in the road that I speak about in my post yesterday about uncertainty.
My youngest will be 1 next month, and although I have loved every minute of being a stay at home mum the guilt about finances is hitting me hard. Can I justify not working, and telling myself that I will work on my photography business? That’s not been really happening over the summer, with the odd job here and there, but I do aim to improve that. I had similar feelings when my eldest was around the same age. I rushed out and found a job which really wasn’t right for me. I told myself it was only for a few years to gain experience, and it turned into a 6 year slog which left me dangerously unhappy and unstable. I also will never really forgive myself for not spending more time with my children while they were growing up. So what do I do? Working part time will not make any really change in our financial situation, and adding childcare for a 1 year old into the mix too, would seem silly.
So here I am. Uncertain again about what the best thing is to do for me and my family. Unfortunately there is no road map showing us where our choices will take us. I really wish that their were.
How do you make decision like this? Are you in a similar mindset?